Heather Stewart: Alignment and Clarity

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Welcome to the Internal Shift Show. I'm Debbie

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Longo. This show focuses on how internal decisions

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shape direction, progress, and long -term outcomes.

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Today's conversation uses real -world expertise

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to examine how subtle internal shifts influence

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the way people move forward. We have a very special

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guest today, Heather Stewart. Thank you, Heather,

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for being on the show today. I appreciate it.

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Thanks, Debbie. I'm glad to talk to you today.

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I'm going to ask you to tell your story and identify

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either a traumatic experience or a life change,

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something that you went through in your life

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that kickstart a process or created you to go

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through a process, right? Where you came out

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on the other side, where there was a way out

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for you, whether you knew it at the time, it

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just happened. And this is what we want to. Talk

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about a little bit here and then the end result

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should always be positive. Now, there's a few

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different reasons why I do this. And one of the

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main reasons is because everybody has their own

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individual story and people can point out, even

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though no two stories are alike, obviously, but

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people can point out something in your story.

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It doesn't even have to really be what we're

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talking about, but could be a little thing that's

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a part of the story. So they're gonna see that

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and they're gonna be able to identify with that

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and if they're not feeling good And if they're

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in this negative thing, whatever we're talking

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about then they can see that They can come out

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of the other side because you're explaining your

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process and how you got through it and everything

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So sometimes if I'm in a negative or I don't

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feel right I don't see there's a way out. I don't

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know. I just don't. I don't know if I could even

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change. I have no idea. So now I say to myself,

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it's going to be like this. I'm just going to

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be like this and I'm just going to have to deal

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with it when that's not true. It's never true.

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But they don't know what they don't want to or

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whatever the case may be. So that's really the

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goal here. So that's what I'm going to ask you

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to do. Thank you. I think it's important to say.

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when you're in that space, it's hard to imagine

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being out of that space. So give yourself some

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grace in being stuck in that space and that you're

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looking for something else. And I know that,

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I mean, humans, we go through lots of things

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in our lives. Sometimes I was trying to decide

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which one to talk about because I've had a few,

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but I think the one that might resonate a lot

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is when I had a stroke. And it was so interesting

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because I had left my corporate job to go into

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this world of wellness and I went from being

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like a corporate executive to running a yoga

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studio and being a massage therapist and I was

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all into wellness. So then I find myself in the

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hospital and they're telling me that I've had

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two strokes and at first I'm like, what are you

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crazy? I'm the healthy person here. You've got

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the wrong file. And it was during COVID. And

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at the time, like I was running my yoga studio,

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I was running my massage business and I was doing

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a little bit of business coaching on the side

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because I had a business background and all of

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a sudden everything had to stop because I am

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now in the hospital, which I had never been before

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in my life. And because it was during, it was

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in 2021. So because it was during COVID, you

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were allowed to have visitors say, There was

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no beds in the hospital. So I was actually in

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the emergency room for three days. And it was

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during Halloween in a major downtown hospital.

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So there was like people coming and going. It

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was crazy in there. And I've got this pounding

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headache because apparently I have had a stroke

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and I can't go anywhere. No one can come and

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talk to me. And it had affected my vision. So

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I couldn't even do what people do, which is go

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into their phone. and school. So I'm just laying

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there going, well, what the hell is happening

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here? And I did the normal thing at first. I

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was completely resisting what was going on. I

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was like, no, this is impossible. You guys are

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crazy. I want to go home. And I had to kind of

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give myself a little moment and go, hold on a

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minute. They're doctors. They've got a chart.

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They've shown you the pictures. Stop fighting

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with them. So I had to kind of like take a step

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back and take a breath and go so if I just trust

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that they're taking care of my body and my brain

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and They know what to do to make sure that I

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kind of come through this. What else can I notice

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here? So For me when I it was I call it surrendering

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to what was going on, but not giving up So I,

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by stopping finding a guess what was actually

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happening to me, but not really like I wasn't

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saying I'm going to be like this forever. I was

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saying, I'm not going to fight this because I

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can't change this, but I can pay attention to

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what's going on and how to, how to look at it

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in a different way. So at the time, like I said,

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I was business coaching, I had a business podcast,

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I had all these clients. And I said, so. What

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am I noticing that's different? And I noticed

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all of the people out in the emergency room and

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there was like adults there with their elderly

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parents. And you could tell the elderly parents

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to really didn't want to be there. They're like,

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Oh, I just tripped. I was, I'm fine. Take me.

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Like they wanted to go home. There were parents

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there with their kids. And I was, and I was in

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a cubicle when I had the curtains shut. And of

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course there was the Halloween party goers were

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there as well who got themselves into trouble.

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And I'm thinking, There's a lot of life happening

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outside of me. So if I can trust that I'm being

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taken care of right now and shift my attention

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to what all this information is giving me, I

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realized that my process was trusting, was knowing

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that I had all of my pieces kind of of my life

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sorted out. I mean, I've been all about this

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physical wellness for so long. that I forgot

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there's an emotional wellness. So I said, I'm

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actually pretty happy now that I've stopped fighting

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with the doctors. And I'm feeling okay. Now I

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know that's not going to be fair. People are

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going to be stuck in that unhappy place. But

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I just took a couple of breaths. I'm like, and

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I knew that my community, the people in my relationships

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around me were being supportive because they

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were sending me voice messages because they knew

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I couldn't read any messages. So they were sending

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me voice messages wishing me well. And I knew

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that my job was fine because my clients were

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saying, oh, Heather, take a look after yourself.

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I knew financially I was okay. And I knew, like,

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I was being paused. I felt like I was being paused

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on purpose to pay attention so that I could shift

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that attention from fighting and driving forward

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all the time to pausing and being okay with what

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was going on. and finding out if I can be curious

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about this instead of unhappy that it's the way

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it is, what can shift for me? And it shifted.

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I mean, it shifted so much for me because I shifted

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out of this like driven person. Everything always

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has to be go, go, go to hold on. We don't have

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to drive forward. We're always moving forward

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regardless. And we can go forward at different

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speeds, different paces. we can take time if

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we need to, to recover. I don't have to go back

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to work next week. I can do it because I couldn't.

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I tried, I actually tried because I hadn't convinced

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myself yet. I actually tried to go back to work

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and I could treat one person and then I had to

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sleep for an hour. This isn't healthy. So let's

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shift that too and let's allow for rest. So this

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shift for me was allow it being in a place where

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I could be curious about what was going on. and

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allowing myself to absorb the, I guess, lessons,

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the things that were coming out of it instead

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of just, because we have that tendency to, when

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we don't want it that way, we just fight, fight,

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fight, fight. So stop fighting, start flowing,

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really is your best way to kind of manage through

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that. Very good, thank you. That was good. How

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did you feel when you were going through this

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process? Did you feel differently? from the beginning

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till the end. And did you feel failure or you

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were going in a different direction? When did

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you feel or when did you notice that it was changing

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direction? Hopefully for the positive, because

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it worked out to be positive. So what was your

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process with that type of thing? When I talk

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about this incident, because sometimes I'll tell

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people I had a stroke and they'll be like, oh

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my God, how terrible. And I kind of now, at the

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time, later, I kind of laugh and say, actually,

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it was amazing for me. It was a three -day silent

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retreat imposed by the universe on me because

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I had nobody to talk to and I couldn't escape

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it. And in the beginning, I did, like I said,

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I still have the normal reactions when things

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go wrong. because we have this brain that's designed

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to keep things that seem safe the same. So it's

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like, I'm in the hospital, that means I'm not

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safe. Let me get out of here. There's something

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wrong. And you're fighting, fighting. And it

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was when I actually gave myself that minute to

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go, wait a minute, hospital's a good place to

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be if there's something wrong. So maybe we can

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relax. And my shift was actually big considering

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it was three days, because I was in that. fighting,

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then I stopped fighting it. I started just being

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okay with what was going on where I was. And

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when I came out the other side, everything that

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I did, my whole business and everything was different

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after I, it was only three days, really. Everything

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that I did afterwards when I came out was different

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because I suddenly went, wait, it's not just

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physical health. Cause I had been focusing a

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hundred percent on physical health. It's not

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just physical health. It's like, the whole person

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needs to feel safe and supporting them. We can't

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split ourselves into parts. It's not advisable

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anyway. But you can look at chunks of your life

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and you can say, my job's doing pretty good,

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but I hate the people that I hang out with. Then

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change something, like change small things. All

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you have to do is change small things. Or you

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hate your job, and then when you come home, you

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you just crab all the time to your family. They're

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not going to resonate well. They're not going

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to have fun with you if you're always stressed

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out at work. So it's like I had to expand my

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view of how to best help people see a different

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way of being. And if you can find pieces in your

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life that are working well, grab onto those and

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try to understand what about them is working

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well. And then If there's part of some of your

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life that aren't working well, you need to give

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yourself some love because, first of all, it's

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not your, like, don't give yourself a hard time

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that you're there. I remember I fell in the desert

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in Jordan and I broke my wrist. And the first

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thought that went into my head was, well, that

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was stupid. How could you fall in the desert?

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There's no rocks here. And I heard this voice.

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I'm like, be quiet, little voice. I'm fine. Look,

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it's just a wrist. I got two. Let's go see what

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kind of adventure I can go on. And I went on

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a massive adventure through the hospitals in

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Jordan. But you gave yourself permission to see

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the possibility that something could be better

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than it is. You don't have to know what the better

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is. You can just trust that there is something

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better. The universe takes care of whatever,

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what the what is. You just have to be curious

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and follow it. Very good. Yep. I agree, definitely,

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100%. So you explained all of that. You explained

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your process and everything and did you feel

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at any point like you were not able to accomplish

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what you wanted to do and did you feel that your

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vision of it being positive or whatever it was.

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is now going to go in the opposite direction.

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So it's kind of like a feel of fear of failure

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or denial or something like that. Did you feel

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any of that? Because a stroke is to me is I never

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had a stroke, but I've worked with people that

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have had it. So to me, it's a very, very traumatic

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thing because you don't know how you're going

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to be when you come out of it. It takes years

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and years. during this process that we're talking

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about here, how did you feel? And also when you're

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working with other people, did you feel that

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that helped you to get over the stroke and the

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feelings? And a stroke is a scary thing because

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even with all of my knowledge, I knew how bones

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healed, I knew how muscles healed, I knew how

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to heal things. Your brain is like this black

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box and you can't see it and you can't touch

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it and you don't know what the heck's going on

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in there. When I was healing, I mean, I found

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that place of trust when I was in the hospital,

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but then you're out of the hospital. And I can

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remember I was in the hospital because I'm also

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an artist and my thinking was like, how am I

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going to paint? I can't see properly. How am

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I going to do this? I can't. I had this fear

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that my eyes were going to be forever crossed.

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And I just, I kind of had to go, okay, well,

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we can talk to myself like I was my mom. We can

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figure this out. It's going to be fine. You know,

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we'll figure something out. We'll get it working.

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And when I got out of the hospital and I did

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start working again, I had to really talk to

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people about what was going on. Because we tend

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to, when something's wrong, we pull back so much

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because we feel like, oh, I can't tell people,

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or I can't let them know that I'm weak or I can't

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burden them. I mean, those are two... wrong thinking

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things. So I had to kind of share with people

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what was going on with me. And I was suffering

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vertigo. So if I walked outside, it's hard to

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describe, but I just, I couldn't do it. I had

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to like shut my eyes and just say, someone lead

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me somewhere. And I had to figure out a way to

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rehab myself so that I could see properly again.

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And the way that I did that was one, trusting

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my own body, but also talking to people about

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This is happening. How do we work with this?

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How does this work? One of my friends sent me

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to a specialist that he knew that I never would

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have heard of. One person gave me this link to

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a way to retrain your eyes and all of these things.

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And coming out, being able to accept help. Some

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people are afraid to say that they're vulnerable

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and that something's going on. But how are you

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going to get any help if you always have to be

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the strong, independent, I got this person, where

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I think it makes you stronger. Like I came out

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stronger and I think more able to understand

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everything that I've ever gone through in my

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life. I always say to my clients, I've gone through

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so much. If whatever's going on with you, I've

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probably had it happen to me. So just let me

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know and we'll figure it out. because it gives

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me that experience of how I came through it and

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then helping them navigate their way through

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it. So like you say, at the beginning, everybody's

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story is same, same, but different. Everybody's

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got their own way to navigate it. So even if

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you get like one thing out of talking to someone,

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maybe it's that one thing that unlocks something

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for you to be able to navigate what's going on

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with you. Doesn't even have to be a stroke, can

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be anything. But finding this way to, COVID made

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us really isolated from each other. And I think

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in some ways it continues. But we're starting

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to find this way back out into the real world

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and talk to real people. And I feel like talking

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to people and being OK with talking to people

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helps you reconnect and find that support and

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that community and resources that are going to

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help you in whatever it is you're struggling

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with. Because doing stuff alone isn't the best

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way to do things. Yeah. And I totally agree with

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that. And you explain that very well. And very

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detailed and i really appreciate that because

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like i said we don't know who's listening and

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for you to explain and talk about your story

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which is so personal to you is a very good thing

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because that shows us in a way that you went

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through a certain process and you realized that.

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there was something beyond what you were thinking

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and feeling at that time. So if anybody has something

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physical, especially like a stroke or cancer

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or anything like that, some lot of times is normal

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to feel depressed or down or unsure or fear or

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something like that. But there's a lot of people

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that have these things that happen and again,

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it could be anything But this is what we're talking

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about and I know this I've worked with a lot

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of people like this It could be that somebody

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this happens to somebody and they think that

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they're gonna be like this Oh, I'm gonna be depressed

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and I'm never gonna be happy again Never gonna

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fulfill my dreams. You know, I'm just gonna be

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like this and also Do I have any desire any willingness

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not to be like that anymore? Or do I want to

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do it and then I go backwards and then I say

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I don't want to be like this and then I have

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fear or Denial what's not so bad and then I go

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back into it So these are the things so what

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my thing is that I always want to listen to my

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first thought And I want to be able to identify,

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first of all, right, what my first thought is.

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But that's another podcast for another day. But

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one good way to do this is that what is listen

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to your gut. You ever hear of the sixth sense?

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Everybody has a sixth sense. People say, oh,

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my gut feeling is listen to that, because that's

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never going to tell you anything negative. I

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can make all the excuses I want all the reasons

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why. I want why I'm never going to change. And

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this goes for anything, why I'm never going to

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be different, why I'm never going to get from

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negative to positive. I can make all the excuses

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I want. I can point the finger all I want. I

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can do this tons of things that I could do. But

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the point is the bottom line is, do I have the

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willingness just a little bit? To write to take

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some action not to be that way and to know that

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Just just for a minute. I don't want to be this

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way Just for a minute or for an hour and then

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what happened after that I'm gonna say oh, I

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feel good for an hour. Let's do it for the next

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hour Oh, I feel great. Now. It's two hours in

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a row. This is fantastic I never felt like this

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in years and years and years and I feel great

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for two hours Yeah, that's a big thing. Why are

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they why are you arguing for your limitations?

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Why are you? Why are you arguing to keep these

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things you don't want why let's let's try arguing

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for something different like and this is to stand

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up and say I don't want this I want this if somebody

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is going through something this is I this is

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one of the things I do but only if a lot of times

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somebody is going through something that they

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really cannot get out of They really see that

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this is how they're completely convinced. But

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can you feel different for a minute, even 30

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seconds? I don't care how long it is. It doesn't

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matter. Because if you could feel if you could

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feel that I'm telling you, it's hysterical. If

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you could feel better for 30 seconds, then you

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could feel better for another 30 seconds. And

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then guess what happens then? Then you've got

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a minute. So now you can feel better because

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30 seconds and 30 seconds is a minute. So now

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you can feel better for another minute. Now you

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got two minutes. And if I have to plan in massage

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school, who I treated, this elderly lady, who,

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she was like that. Nothing, she was never happy.

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There was always something wrong. And one day

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I was just tired. I'm like, her name was, her

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last name was White, which was hilarious because

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she was so black. And I said, well, does your

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toe hurt? Does your big toe hurt? She said, no.

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I'm like, hallelujah. Let's enjoy the fact your

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big toe doesn't hurt. And after that she loved

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me because I just wouldn't let her stay in that

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I suck place. Like you can suck all you want,

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but I'm not coming into your vacuum. Let's talk

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about the things that are working. And that's

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not to ignore, but like you said, 30 seconds

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of feeling good, you're going to get addicted

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to it. And that's not in a toxic positivity,

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don't worry, be happy way. That's in the stuff

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is going on and I still choose that I'm going

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to be okay. So I just need somebody to help me

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to change my mindset, to help me see that I don't

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have to be that way anymore. And whether somebody

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shows me or explains it or tells a story or I

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listen to a podcast or I hear a neighbor say

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something or whatever it is, that is something

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where I can listen to that, even if it's just

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a second and even if it's one small thought.

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That says maybe I should try this, you know,

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and but the thing is, I have to want to do that.

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I have to seek help like that client sort you

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out. Yeah. So that's the thing. Exactly. I need

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to somehow some way create a very small willingness

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to do something different. And my brain is going

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to tell me that. But again, which way do I want?

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Do I want to do it or do I not? So this is the

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thing. But. I still need to take the action.

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Yeah, you're not going to be like, right. I'm

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going to do this and then I'm going to be like

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that forever. You're going to go, yes, no, yes,

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no, yes, no. But if you do a yes and you can

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get a hold of somebody who can help you when

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you're in the know, they'll help you back to

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the yes. It's like that's part of the process.

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Exactly. It's not a snow. Yeah, so that was good.

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Thank you. So how do you feel today, right now,

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based on your story, your process, everything

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we just spoke about in this whole podcast? My

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life, right now, I describe it as freaking magical.

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So I have my coaching business and I still teach

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and I'm writing books and I just feel like everything

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that I do, I don't understand always why. But

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I just think, wow, this is really exciting. I'm

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going to go this way. This is really exciting.

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I'm going to go this way. And every direction

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that I follow that has that feeling of uplifting,

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it's just making my life better. So now, if people

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looked at my life, if they looked at all the

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details of my life, they would point out things

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in here that are like, well, that's not good.

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That's not good. I'm like, no, it's fine. No,

00:23:50.150 --> 00:23:53.289
it's fine. That's your evaluation. My life is

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magic. My life is magic. And I get up every day

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happy, really. It's very rare, very rare for

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me to get into the grumpy pants phase of life.

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Usually it's just if I didn't have enough sleep.

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So I make sure I get enough, especially since

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my stroke. I love naps. Naps are a superpower.

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But 99 % of the time, my life is magic, even

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when stuff's going sideways. Instead of getting

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upset these days, I go, whoa, why did that happen?

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Like something happened just yesterday where

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my, it's interesting you say first thought, because

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my first thought was, oh my God. And then my

00:24:32.700 --> 00:24:35.079
second thought was, no, it's fine. It's fine.

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Deal with that tomorrow. I'm like, I'll deal

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with that tomorrow. So if you can find those

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small shifts and they accumulate, you get to

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that place where you just feel like it doesn't

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matter what happens, like it or not like it is.

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It's going to be an interesting ride and it's

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going to be fun at the end. Yeah. Very good.

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Yeah, I really like it. Yeah, that was very,

00:24:58.259 --> 00:24:59.880
very good. I really like what you said. That

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was actually a good way to end, too. So what

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stands out from this conversation is that meaningful

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change is built through consistent internal decisions,

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not traumatic moments. If something resonated

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with you, consider where those internal decisions

00:25:13.579 --> 00:25:15.849
are already shaping your path. This has been

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the Internal Shift Show. Thank you for listening

00:25:17.750 --> 00:25:20.369
and thank you for being on the show. I appreciate

00:25:20.369 --> 00:25:20.589
it.